Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Many untold.
or never supposed to be told.
..naturally, steadily, uncertainly..
11:09 PM; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, October 31, 2009
To Whose Explanation of One's Decision Meant for..
I don't understand why people doubt, "demand" explanation, or keep following up a decision of mine, in which I have been assured. Annoyed. Whatever reason it is, those depict a disbelief.
Yes, people have to make a critical or not simple, or even radical decision at times, so am I. Why can't I make mine, when I'm sure it's in God's mightly plan for me (not you)? And, in the first place, what right those people has to unendingly question or test if my decision is right?
I am a grown up, who is able to make my own decision. I am not a reckless immature child.
I might be wrong some times. But when evidences supported God's new path for me and joy is in my heart, who I am to still question Him? And who are you, people, then shake unreasonably a firm decision of mine?
Why must I unendingly come out with explanation to people, when God even doesn't demand that? He demand my obedience, then you demand my explanation.
I can't explain fantastically why am I in. It's too personal. Dr Bob Cook said, "If you can explain what's going on, God didn't do it."
I have done explaining as best I can to whom this decision may concern. I have cleared everything. But to those unrelated people, truly can't understand your "for fun" behavior.
I don't understand why people doubt, "demand" explanation, or keep following up a decision of mine, in which I have been assured. Annoyed. Whatever reason it is, those depict a disbelief.
Yes, people have to make a critical or not simple, or even radical decision at times, so am I. Why can't I make mine, when I'm sure it's in God's mightly plan for me (not you)? And, in the first place, what right those people has to unendingly question or test if my decision is right?
I am a grown up, who is able to make my own decision. I am not a reckless immature child.
I might be wrong some times. But when evidences supported God's new path for me and joy is in my heart, who I am to still question Him? And who are you, people, then shake unreasonably a firm decision of mine?
Why must I unendingly come out with explanation to people, when God even doesn't demand that? He demand my obedience, then you demand my explanation.
I can't explain fantastically why am I in. It's too personal. Dr Bob Cook said, "If you can explain what's going on, God didn't do it."
I have done explaining as best I can to whom this decision may concern. I have cleared everything. But to those unrelated people, truly can't understand your "for fun" behavior.
1:02 PM; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Happy Birthday, Marchel!
Love you so much..:)
Hope that he can be a great Godly man one day..
That makes an impact to this world..:)
11:51 AM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Encountered Circumstances that Make Me Think & Learn.. (Part III)
Perceived "Strong"..
It just a second day to school, but I could sense how tense the athmosphere of the coursemates in their (I mean mine also) last semester, especially in forming project groups. Me? Still in my calm bo-chap mood.
I don't understand the valid reason of why invisibly everyone was labelled. "strong", "hardworking", "experienced", "good in English", "free-rider", etc. I questioned the base of that labels and what is it for. I just found that people is not valued as people, but as labels. Unreliable labels to be precise.
I don't understand the valid reason of why people 'pick & choose' and question ppl's ability or reason being chosen. 'Pick & choose', like a supermarket. 'Questioning', as if one has an ability or prestige to choose, like my Indonesian president recently choose his ministers. Cool huh?
I don't understand the valid reason of why must gather perceived "strong" ppl. I don't believe that "strong" ppl surely produce great magnificent project works. I believe in good teamwork and the capabilities of each person to overcome the challenge. Your strong might not my strong, my strong might not your strong, so? Wad is it for?
Just my point of view, no offense! If we think again, hmm this shows people are sometimes full of insecurity. Wanting to get the "strongs" to make them feel secure or saver.
Too bad, I don't belive in such things. And I don't feel I must behave like that, 'cos I don't think I'm insecure. My security doesn't lie in human, but my Master.
If you ask me, why I 'as if die2' join a particular group? Because the person is X, Y, Z... Naahh, simply because he is my friend. I value him as a friend, a human not a label.
I wonder if I start to get label also..:P
Note: 100% no attempt to criticize/ be sarcastic to anyone. Not acting to be wise, but hmm maybe I am, haha. Not being angry to anyone, just find this funny. Purely my thoughts.
Happy going thru our last lap, everyone! :)
Be optimistic!
2:02 PM; unforgotten.Y
Encountered Circumstances that Make Me Think & Learn.. (Part II)
A Depressed Man..
Yesterday, on the bus 222, I sat at the back of an Indian man,who maybe in his 40s & looked fierce. Anyway, I don't care! For a moment the bus driver talked to a China man at the back, but that man didn't know. The Indian man shouted loudly, "Hey!" continuing with all vulgarities towards that China man which never ended until we reached the Bedok MRT. He said, "Because of you, China men! We are all dying".
Really a depressed man. Seriously. Sad.
Life. While Spore keeps demanding for more people that caused many foreigners come to fill the job, some locals are sufferred because they are jobless. Irony, huh?
There will never be a perfect government anyway. Personally I admire Spore govt. I think people often complain, wasting their time never look on ways to solve his/her problems. I personally think if we dare to complain, we dare to take the challenge to be at the position of ppl that we've complained. But many of us, can talk a lot but do nothing..
Maybe people just never be thankful on what they have. That man has life, abled body (not over/underweight), and ability to speak English (many Indonesians don't!). Haiss, they just don't think!
It's not we don't have, but we choose not to see.
Hmm.. Maybe that man should listen what my Sunday School kids sang last week. "rejoice in the Lord always, and again I said Rejoice". Then, he gonna punch the kids..:P But actually he gotta listen!
1:24 PM; unforgotten.Y
Encountered Circumstances that Make Me Think & Learn.. (Part I)
An Ambitious Man..
We somehow got to know a guy. He had a BIG dream to change the world, like being a politician (my past dream!) or a famous businessman. From his words (coupled w/ vulgarities), we could sense his deep frustration towards the earth, the world where we are living in. So messed up, he said. To the extend, he doesn't want to have children 'cos the children will face worse condition of the earth.
A rare man. Interesting. Let's think!
"He acted as if he is a god", a friend commented, "He seriously needs God", which I agree. You might wonder why the answer is God?
It's beautiful to be a Christian because you always know that God is in control of EVERYTHING. It's good to change the world, but if you have a solid vision, direction & guidance. Nothing on earth can offer you a solid assurance, other than God, trust me. World is just too disappointing. :(
Too much needs in the world! Correct, but to do everything? You are sure you can? Think again! God never ask us to do everything, but only something, a part that He specially designs for you to fulfill. Why pressurize ourselves w/ sth that we are 100% incapable of?
In the Bible, all this messed up world has been predicted to happen. Too bad. None can stop this. You think God is cruel? Think again! Who are we? He is the Creator of the earth, He has an absolute control on what He wants to do with it! So, don't waste our time, let's come back to God.
He pitied his children & cherished old ways of life. It makes me think that we are born in this century because we are stronger to withstand all these worldly mess. You are meant for this life. If you were in the past, hmm can stand to sleep without electricity or not? :P Maybe no.. But obviously, some ppl are change-makers, complainers, bo-chap parties, or hmm quitter.
12:21 AM; unforgotten.Y